once you put everything in order

Once you analyze and you put everything in order,
things become clearer.

One day while I was frustrated with my life,
Angry because of a disease that didn't seem to want to let go of me ...
I sat in front of my mirror ...
I began to blame my mother for everything

that had happened to me

closed my eyes
I thought about her
She had conceived me

Put me in this world

Hugged me ... sometimes

Reprimanded me ...often

and abandoned me ..when I just turned 8 ...

She told, my father had every right on me

Because I had his name not hers

Another woman asked me to call Mom

She said she loved me like I was hers

She Hugged me,

Reprimanded me,

Taught me to love books,

It lasted 7 years... she left

She divorced my father ...
Took my new little brother with her and ...
Abandoned me...
I opened my eyes

My biologic mother was now dead ...

.... of cancer ...

I made peace with her before she passed away

I forgive her,

I hope she forgives me now

Because I know from my other brothers and sisters

Her kids ... That she was great

and cried a lot for loosing me...

I looked deeper in the mirroir and realized

That the only one to blame is me

Am I not the one who won the race in her wound ?

Meaning that

I'm Strong

I'm A Winner

And I'm Lucky because I had two mothers

who loved me

They had to make tough choices

They did knowing that they had a tough Girl

Thank you Moms